I want to roll in this moment until I become its vocabulary
until I smell like the bones
until I am its echo…
You’ve spent a lifetime training
And then he feels that familiar sensation of drifting—when his body untethers from the material world and he soon dissolves into a fine, floating mist that evaporates into the atmosphere.
Darkness always follows.
Infant’s Name: A
Delivery Date: August 1, 2002
My grandmother asked, “Does it feel like being widowed?”
It is the 70s. 1970s? 2570s? Who knows?
Audre and I have a penthouse in New York.
you quit wearing pants
loaf around your yard
in hole-nipped panties
The storm passes without snow.
The car waits loyally in the back lot.
Do not say anything anybody else has said ever. Things are not “bleached by sun.”
Still life all the time inspired by scenes of domestic life.
My mother has been dead for two hundred and forty-three days. I’ve had plenty of things in my refrigerator for longer.
There is so little left of the tomato plants.
Should have found a job by now; should have slept in the night;
should have boiled old coffee before noon.
Even as the sun warms the concrete
the long nights’ sensual cold lingers in my clothes.
I tap at the alphabet while a single deer
taps at the dirt beyond the brush
on the far side of the tree line.
Just starlight and some small scribbling across vinyl.
A tortured simper uncoils itself across my mouth as I open another bottle of Penis wine.
I’d never heard of anyone having a second baby right after the first one, but everything was so strange in those early days of motherhood that I just acted on instinct.
My dad was an inveterate theatergoer in the old country where theatre reigned supreme before the Soviets, under the Soviets, after the Soviets.