ISSUE FOUR
Now that the Israeli has left, it falls
on me to make the salad.
it’s touch-and-go with me and weddings
You’re joking, I say, interrupting the steady bumping of the doctor’s bushy white mustache.
I am not a guide
for every traveler
of loss.
Lights on the dashboard spell out
“You still can’t kiss me”
Taking photographs of my hometown has given me a chance to reflect on people whom I have not valued.
He has stories that I am not in
anymore. It’s healed this way.
I myself should never have been born
A man with a fistful of showbags said, “That cow sounds like a person trying to sound like a cow.”
the man is stayed bent over the canvas
of my sofa. the man is me the man is him
self and I bring down the whip…
I create images that are narrative, featuring visual schematics, relying on juxtaposition for contrast or disjuncture.
The two of us toast to a man we both love, to whatever degree, clink our glasses and laugh…
I know you shouldn’t keep wild animals as pets, but I’ve had the same spider in my bathroom sink for over two weeks.
Jenna says that he typically goes for redheads, so I run to Target and buy a box of hair dye.
How do you even know when you’re there—at the epicenter?
To be encased, Clint had always thought, was foolishness. Why allow yourself to be open to such sorrow?
I point my camera towards B. Lovely and she is sitting on the curb.
“The woman was a catastrophe,” Carlos told me at the time. “But she was as honest as my face is ugly.”
ONLY THROUGH PAIN,
CAN WE TRULY FEEL ALIVE
love is a soggy tea stain on a grocery receipt
She turns her back for me to fasten the rows of metal hooks. Why isn’t our small, tender freedom enough?
Ma wrings
a wet world
of colors
You’ve been dreading this day since the moment you found out you were pregnant—perhaps even before.
You are strange, my mother said, dwelling on the past.
Through the dusty window in my parent’s bedroom, I watched the neighbor’s cattle graze.
The new octopus at the children’s aquarium was named Athena, and as we waited for her to emerge, I thought of the almost-too-faint second line on the pregnancy test three days before.
The hamantaschen have followed us from apartment to apartment, all of the kitchens dark, cramped, cluttered.
my love is a glass shard, a knife made of madness and moonlight,
and there are already way too many fragments in this house
The poetry of Brian S. Ellis unravels, inverts, investigates, and complicates. His poems are radical koans and invitations to forego common narratives.
The sin is existing.
If America is Babylon / and you are an exile / newly arrived among pagans / Catholic, ‘Ngolan, Black, woman / you already know how to pray
He used to hold my hand on Commonwealth. I wonder sometimes if he ever still thinks about my mouth.
Live the rest of your life
from one worst case to another.
I have an axe
with hearts gashed
It was an engagement of secrets in sunlit spaces.
I run with a pack of older boys from our neighborhood, the only girl.
If my life was the size of my arm, I would stretch it out for you.
Dylan Krieger’s poetry is unflinching, grotesque, and beautiful. Her work tackles trauma, wrestles authority, and is a decadent sonic feast.
I have observed, the theorist
I am
Winter sat like a wolf
on the horizon.
I’m dancing with my best friend’s husband, under the influence of his jaws and thighs.
we drove on through
the blue seal of morning as the turbines
turned and winked out their hearts
I’msorry I‘ll see what happens iLife
my father holds
his favorite drink
I would always rather be happy than
dignified. Rather held than held
in awe.
Shadows and psychological metaphors are favored photographic subjects for me.
the search for a wayward self
She said I would find my perfect love when on the brink of death.