my friends’ fathers are dropping I mean dying like flies
The two of us toast to a man we both love, to whatever degree, clink our glasses and laugh…
Lights on the dashboard spell out “You still can’t kiss me”
four-thirty a.m.
I myself should never have been born
Okay, picture this: We’re in an elevator. The elevator shuts down. It doesn’t matter where we’re going, only that we’re alone.
Yes I am guilty, I’m guilty. A sin was desirable then. Bring the dancer back to the stalks.
Even as the sun warms the concrete the long nights’ sensual cold lingers in my clothes.
Do not say anything anybody else has said ever. Things are not “bleached by sun.”
you know that baby swallows make silver ripples in wild rivers to court reeds?
I don’t know why I’m in the garden kneeling on dirt
Ghosts for hire, whispers in her mouth, cysts to feel, the symmetry of a gift.
I imagined a cascade of slow death for all / that mattered…
this is what I want you to to see: leaves falling because it is too late for them not to
and then her eyes fully opened — blazed through with strands of mud
I imagine that undressing a color, though, would be so much like peeling a memory away from the grey and the white matter of your brain.
The poetry of Brian S. Ellis unravels, inverts, investigates, and complicates. His poems are radical koans and invitations to forego common narratives.
You said it was okay to blame what goes wrong on the planet
the strands of your hair on the bathroom tiles aren’t sketching defeat. that’s you spitting disease in the face with another day you’ve woken up to.
Gravel-scatted hell & we were blessed to be able to hold on for even a heartbeat